I had finished a yoga class. While lying on my mat focusing on the feelings and sensations in my body and appreciating how I felt after the class, I experienced a moment. A still, a beautiful moment. In that moment I felt who I was. I felt myself. My emotional self, my physical self, my spiritual self all at the same time. It was beautiful. The words that came to mind in that moment were – “Oh, hello me. There you are”.
This for me was a sense of awareness – a lightness, a truth. These words may seem a bit “woo-woo”, but they are the right words. The only words that come close to describing that moment for me. It was just a moment, but I shifted. I don’t know what brought it on and I don’t need to know. It had not happened before, and it has not happened again.
Up until then, I had lost myself in the busy-ness of life. Everything I did and how I managed my time was governed by what I felt should be done. With hindsight, I would not change the busy-ness it how I am and how I get things done.
I still get lost in the busy-ness of life. I do try to notice when I am busy being busy. When I succeed, I remind myself of my moment of awareness and I take another moment to slow down, breathe and be more aware.
I keep a quote by Lalah Delia on my cellphone that serves as a reminder of my magical moment and what it means to me. The quote is “She remembered who she was and the game changed”.
Have you had a moment of awareness? What do you do to slow down in all the busy-ness of life?